It's official...I'm crazed

I have a problem. Well, I have several problems or issues, but the one that is seriously evident to me and that I'm going to ponder for a minute is that I have no faith in myself or my judgment when it comes to understanding the men I'm interested in romantically. That, and I'm crazy. Not "need to be locked up because I think I'm from another planet" crazy, it's more like Attencion Deficit Disorder crazy. I get fixated on a thought or feeling and the next thing you know, I've escalated an event much more than necessary. Essentially, I blow things way out of proportion because for some reason I can't relax and just wait and see what happens. I have to push people and situations because on some level I think I'm trying to control things. Control has (is) always been an issue with me, probably due to having a messy upbringing with alcoholic, out of control parents. For as long as I can remember, I'm always trying to fix things and I tend to jump to thinking I've done something wrong when things change in a relationship, like a guy not calling after we're intimate in what I think is a timely fashion. I guess I realize--and this is not some new epiphany here-- that I'm always on some level trying to control the things I can't and when I don't have all the information, or I'm dealing with occasional bouts of low self esteem, I just can take things way over the top in trying to change the outcome instead of just chilling and seeing what happens. I just need to work on it. I just need to keep working on it like I have been for my entire life. I hope it gets easier because I don't think I can live in my head that much without really going crazy.